A misty fog covered the world,
especially in low-lying areas around the rolling hills of the pasture. The
little grove of trees sat in the distance, seeming to hover within the fog
rather than sitting rooted to the ground. Ashley sat on the top rung of the
fence looking out over the early morning scene and pondering again, as she’d
done so many times since the big storm, how her cattle had instinctively stayed
safe in that little haven of trees.
It was early enough that she hadn’t
felt compelled to spend time in the barn yet to do the chores. She just wanted
to enjoy the solitude of the morning. It was early fall and the frost had just
recently started coating the ground each night. Harvest season was almost
complete and soon it would be time to put away the farm equipment. She wasn’t
ready for that, and she didn’t quite know why. She wasn’t the one who spent
time up on the tractor; in fact the change in farming routine really wouldn’t
alter her life in any way. She was back in class everyday at the university.
Still, it was something about the
changing of the season that bothered her. It was another little chapter in her
life that reminded her that the really important decisions had yet to be made.
Even as her heart was weighed down by her frustrations, she pushed them to the
back of her mind to focus on the peace of the morning.
It had been an irresolute few
months, getting through the clean-up from the storm and starting the new school
year. But today she just wanted to relax in the moment and enjoy the morning.
She wasn’t surprised to hear soft
footfall behind her, but she didn’t turn to look at him. Paul’s strong arms
wrapped around her waist and she leaned back against him with a content sigh.
It felt so good to have him holding her.
Neither of them spoke for a long
time. She reached up and rested her hands on his arms, folding them around him
in a soft hug. She wasn’t afraid of falling as she released her hands from the
fence post, because she felt the security of his embrace. She was reminded
again of how comfortable it would be to be his wife. She wouldn’t have to
change her life in any way. He was already buying his father’s farm. All they
would have to do is build a little house off in one corner of his property, get
married, and take that one last step to complete their lives. They would be
happy and content. They were in love. They would finally be able to let down
the curtain that had been holding them apart all these years. They would be
able spend every day together…every night together. The thought made Ashley
smile and she sighed again.
She had always tried not to let her
physical attraction to Paul dictate her decision. Yet, she knew it was
impossible to deny how her body reacted to being in his arms. She wanted to
finally be able to let those feelings flow through every part of her life. They
always had to be so careful, so controlled. She didn’t want to be controlled
anymore. She wanted to be able to let down her guard and just see where it
would take them. She wanted to finally tell him that she wanted to marry him.
Even as she thought it, her heart
pulled her away again. It wasn’t time. She still wasn’t ready. She knew that
there was another man who made her feel the same way. She closed her eyes,
trying to push away all feelings for Caleb so that she could focus on Paul. But
it wouldn’t work. He was still there…
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